Yesterday I was just driving home from the grocery store and the sky was a beautiful shade of pink. Light snow on the ground driving by a state park. In that moment I knew everything was Ok and I was at a state of peace I never would’ve thought possible even 1 year ago.
Ever since that DMT experience I had about 8 months ago, I have had more and more moments like this. And overall a profound sense of peace and joy. I have never been more grateful for a drug in my life.
Used to work at a company that was selling computer equipment to terrorist organizations. They wanted an engineer to work with compliance to basically, very illegally, “reclassify” components so that they could get them to shady organizations more easily (figured this out after I had already accepted the position).
I could’ve just quit. But then they would’ve found some other engineer to do the work, and probably quite easily (they were paying well).
Instead I just refused to do what they asked of me. Got yelled at, they tried everything possible to get me to quit (moving my desk alone in the warehouse where it was freezing, making up rumors about me, etc). Still, it took them a year to finally find a reason to fire me (and still, it was without cause, so I got unemployment too). That’s 1 year that I wasted for them.
Most companies aren’t going to go through the hassle of firing for cause, because that opens them up to lawsuits. They will likely just take the hit of having to pay into unemployment, and lay you off instead.
It is possible to say No. You might get yelled at and be treated like shit, but at the end of the day, I knew I was doing the right thing. And that’s what’s most important, in my opinion.
People say “well if I say No, they’ll just fire me on the spot”, but have you actually tried to say No? If they do fire you, then make them go through the hassle of firing you, and for fucks sake, fight back!
If I can do it, anyone can do it.
The DMT I took yesterday says otherwise
“Requiring for academic purposes” supposes that it will be studied and critiqued in a classroom setting. This is not the case here.
Do I need to read Mein Kampf to know that that’s also biased?
Long term growth vs short term gain. Person B reflects and realizes they spent the day trying to be perfect, since they have good intention, and thus will reflect on their actions in an effort to improve. Next day they stop trying to be perfect and instead act.
Of course, both getting hit by a bus tomorrow makes my argument null, since it’s predicated on long term growth over short term gain. But most people aren’t getting hit by a bus tomorrow.
What is the intent in each case? I perform one act today with selfish intent that happens to help someone, but what about tomorrow? Or the next day? Am I improving on the act to see if I can help more people tomorrow? Not with selfish intent I’m not.
Today I tried with good intention to help someone. It doesn’t work. But, my true intent is to help- so I learn from my mistake today because I genuinely care, and tomorrow I now help one person with my act. I continue to improve and grow as a person, and over the next few years, I am helping out many others and bringing joy into the lives of those around me, inspiring others to also live their lives with good intention, creating a ripple effect.
I believe that is much more important than any kind of selfish intent, no matter how much the selfish act happened to help today.
I disagree. Does only the end goal matter? Or does intention also matter?
I would argue that intent is actually more important in the long run. I could perform an act today that helps people, but if my intent wasn’t to help people, then the act will be singular. There will be no “drive” toward greater acts that help even more people. No continuous improvement. No learning from mistakes and growing. Why? Because if I don’t actually care about helping people, none of that background stuff is happening which actually moves you toward your goals in the long run
Eckhart Tolle. Thich Nhat Hanh. Maharaj. Some of my favorite folks.
Nonduality and mindfulness (and a bit of DMT) have brought me a profound sense of peace and happiness into my life that I never thought imaginable.