Way back when I had a phase of a few months where it was all I would do in my spare time, and was increasingly making spare time to lay in bed and smoke. It just made everything nice, soft and floaty - including living in a crappy flat with a crazy and annoying flatmate (who supplied, and became less annoying after a few hits) and their dog. Luckily they moved out and I had no other source, 'cause I think that could’ve well been the end of my life/progress. I understood the nastiness of the Opium Wars at that point.

Morphine I think is a lot stronger? Only tried a tab once from a friend, who later OD’d (RIP). I had to keep getting up to go throw up but everything was fucking perfect. Like a mind-blowingly pleasant physical feeling.

Yeah opioids are dangerous, best to avoid.

Apologies!!

Going to Italy to use an LLM to find pasta Alfredo is… well, there’s your use case. Pure and unfettered ignorance. I will take my down votes now, thank you. I don’t care. Ugh. Just ugh.

cit. I take a very “conservative” approach to philosophy. If you are going to introduce some brand new world-shattering “paradigm shift” metaphysics, then I am going to be your biggest skeptic. I will want you to demonstrate that this is a necessity, either a logical or empirical necessity, such that all more trivial ways to conceive of the world have been exhausted.

… so much time wasted with this fucking gatekeeping. try acid.

Haha as a child of musicians - you are so right about the egos. Great writing too. I still think/dream that an anarchist orchestra could work, with appropriate rethinking of the whole musical career climb crap… Someday, maybe, people will play for joy, and just to share that joy with each other and with others. No doucherie needed or encouraged.

I do wonder why just one person though - couldn’t it be more distributed to avoid all the ego bullshit conductors seem to almost inavoidably suffer from?

haha damn looks like I’m about to read just that part tonight, what a coincidence. skipping to not get it spoilered. but then again the whole book is just one long rant against the struggle, in the end. glad i finally got through it though - only took ten years

Probably not weird but an episode or two of MAS*H will always make me feel better

That we will continue to exploit other humans for material comfort, and justify it with more or less overt racism - black and brown lives just can’t matter, otherwise we’d have to give up our privilege and things. Make their countries unlivable and let them drown trying to get out.

here’s a paper i think about a lot https://academic.oup.com/fpa/article-abstract/13/3/682/3076107?login=false

Riversong - Tonto’s Expanding Head Band (Universal Paperclip)

Oh and The Shining at the time (11 y/o home alone) really messed me up as well.

Birds… 30+ years later I’m still always a bit creeped out by them, especially sea gulls.